a-HA!

Discovered something new today... pwede pala akong makinig
ng international radio stations using windows media
player... it may seem foolish na ngayon ko lang nalaman na
pwede pala... am missing a lot.... natuwa ako bigla...
meron blues, world music, and even gregorian chant...

2 days na ako naka leave... nakapag soul search na rin
ako... I guess na realize ko rin today what I really want
to do with my life... actually its more of an affirmation
na this is what I really want to do... even against all
odds. ( background music... new age ).

Medyo magiging busy ako over the weekend... party birthday
ng anak ni abraham, onglim event... valentines event ng
blackbox... up until then... sana di na sing shallow nito
ang isusulat ko dito...

spaced out...

Went out with friends kanina... sa robinsons lang...
bought some stuff... niloloko ako ni arlene... sabi nya...
pag meron daw akong gustong gustong bilhin tapos out of
stock or di available... pag ka alis ko nagiging spaced
out daw ako... point blank... parang natutulalala... up
until i snap out of it tsaka lang daw ako pwedeng
kausapin... dahil para raw di rumerehistro yung kumakausap
sa akin... totoo naman... i wont argue with that... kasi
nga sabi ko naga am the type of person na di tumitigil ang
pag iisip hanggat di ko nakukuha yung gusto ko... even
when I paint... or do something creative... na
frufrustrate ako pag di nagmaterialize yung gusto ko...
anyways... saw the movie king of mask last friday with
arlene... twas a good movie...
moving at the same time...

I was reading the diary of my friends kanina... and it
felt good sneaking at other peoples lives... not in a bad
sense... parang in a way nagiging involve ka sa loob ng
utak nila... parang ... i dunno how to explain it...its
like ah... kaya pala ganun...

am kinda feeling dizzy na... come tuesday nasa paseo na
ako ulit... am sending my resume tom... so am crossing my
fingers... sana matanggap ako sa ad agency.

Uncertain

Am updating my resume for two days now, at hindi pa rin
matapos tapos... how can a printer bring so much stress!
darn, ayaw mag print ng gusto kong kulay! and all my datas
seem so disorganized (partly my fault). Am still
uncertain kung lilipat ako ng work, kasi as i've said, I
have no reason to leave my present job, though I cant
really say na this is my dream job, still... maybe its
worth a try...

Dapat may meeting kami sa client for black box kanina kaso
all of a sudden, biglang kinancel... di daw pwede yung
fiance ni Kat, well, sana matuloy na next time
meeting...sayang din yun.

Will be busy the whole month, looks like marami kaming
bookings...sana rin di lang pagod ang kitain namin (
monetary din :) ).

Pakiramdam ko na bre brain drain na ako... sa dami kong
iniisip... Work sa office, black box, side lines, st
peter... na miss ko tuloy yung palabas sa hbo dati na
animation na stressed eric...

dito na muna

Tagaytay Escape

Had a Recollection today... actually nag start yung
recollection friday night hanggang saturday afternoon. It
was both exhausting (physically, coz be slept late and
woke up early the next day... and the biyahe, whew!) and
enlightening, to know that people my age share the same
sentiments when it comes to their faith.

I've learned that sometimes, God doesn't always commands
us to GO! to move... but instead, He wants us to stop and
COME to His Presence. It was enlightening because I've
learned that even when I am lost... God will always look
for me. And even if the future seem uncertain...only one
thing is certain... God will be there to meet me.

Exhausted

Got really exhausted today!!!! actually kahapon pa...
we
decorated our church for the celebration of Chinese New
Year... took us up until 3 AM para matapos nung saturday
and sunday afternoon tinapos pa namin...anyways it's worth
it. I really appreciate those who help decorate the
church.... medyo complicated kasi yung naging design namin
(well not complicated, but rather, mahirap i-execute ).

Have work tomorrow... medyo in limbo state pa rin ako...
to work or not to work... that is the question... (no
choice, to work ) We have a retreat next week... I hope
it will be a meaningful one.

Dito na muna

State of Mind

Went to a nuns profession of vows... sang the litany of
the saints for her... 'Twas a moving experience... parang
ibang klase... kase parang at this time and age... meron
pa rin palang mga tao na willing to give their life for
the sake of God and service for the poor...It was really
full of emotions when one of the sisters from the
congregation recited "In the providence of God, I
Believe... In the Providence of God, I Hope... In the
Providence of God... I give thanks..." medyo teary eyed pa
nga siya.

Saw the movie "Monsoon wedding" an Indian film... maganda
cinematography... tsaka story though medyo stereotype na
nga yung mga ganong kwento...Family stuff... ganda rin
yung twist ng storya...

Pangkatapos yung zhou yu's train... medyo mabagal yung
storya... reminiscent of "in the mood for love"
BOORRRIINNGGGG!

Anyways... has a great day today... Malapit na naman ang
pasukan sa opisina!!!! kailangan ko ng ihanda ang
damdamin
ko.

ikalawang araw ng bagong taon!

It's January 2, 2004 today... walang magawa... di pa ako
naglulunch... at bored na bored na ako... kaya naisipan
kong gumawa ng sarili kong online diary... para mabasa ng
sanlibutan ang nasa utak ko... wag masamain na wala akong
kaibigan para ikwento ang nangyayari sa buhay ko kaya lang
mas cool to! ehehe... am chatting with jaja right now...
na wala ring magawa... kung ano ano ang pinag uusapan
namin... Duchamp ( isang alagad ng sining pwede nyong
puntahan ang website nya... kaya lang your brains might
explode sa katalinuhan ng taong ito
www.understandingduchamp.com ), tungkol sa movie na crying
ladies at bridal shower...

Life was really good nung nakaraang taong... I just hope I
receive the same blessings and graces this year...

Some of my new years resolution for 2004 ( this might
interest you... kung hindi man, remind me na meron pala
akong new years resolution! )
-Say grace before meals
-Paint at least twice a month
-Eat healthy food!

I think thats good enough for my body, mind and soul for
2004.

at hanggang dito na muna!